I’ve been pregnant twice. The first time it happened I chose to have an abortion. I was too young to be a single mother so I did what I felt I had to do, and I did so without regret. The second time around, I didn’t know I was pregnant until I miscarried alone at home. My then-husband tried to reassure me by reminding me that we didn’t want children. We didn’t talk much about what happened. It was for the best, that much was understood. The days after passed in a blur. I remember going over to my father’s house after I got medical confirmation. He and his wife sat down with my husband and I and we all agreed, this was for the best. Of course it was. I went to bed early that night. I remember lying in bed in the dark listening to music. Beyoncé’s “Heaven” came on my shuffle rotation and I just lost it. For the first time since it happened, I let myself cry. When my husband came in the room and found me crying to Beyoncé, he laughed. I told him I was crying for the child we lost. He told me I’d been there before. “That’s different,” I said. “That time I got to choose.” I don’t think he understood the distinction.
I left him two months later.
I met Alex by chance. He called me beautiful. It was the only time I had ever believed that compliment.
I didn’t feel beautiful but I wanted to. I wanted to believe him. When I looked in the mirror, I wanted to see what he saw. I wanted to be able to say, “I am beautiful” and believe it. So I started taking self-portraits and I didn’t shy from showing off my stretchmark covered belly. Other women really responded to it and soon I was taking pictures of other people and now photography has become my life.
These marks remind me of what I lost and all I’ve gained since. They tell my story. They are my tiger stripes. They mark my strength, my ability to survive, and to let go.
pure delight. simply pure delight.
the “bonk” did me in.
#streetart #poster #marvista #losangeles #california (at Los Angeles Brakeless)
Swedish architects and 3D artists Anny Wang and Tim Söderström teamed up to create an ongoing series of experimental GIFs that challenge the laws of physics. Titled ‘Physlab‘, the hyperreal pieces were made with 3D software to create worlds that merge physics with dreamy, experimental spaces. In a statement about the project, the duo says: “What we’ve been into lately is to implement physical forces from the real world and play with them in our otherwise quite surreal platform.”
I expected garbage and I got gold
I want more edgy support posts like this tbh. I love them in the same way people find comfort in “you did great today! uwu” posts, which is nice.
please let supportive, understanding edgy skeletons become a widespread thing
This pleases me insurmountably
These are excellent
“The Last Bastion”
this short made me cry. beautifully done. so good.
I said NO... PARK...ING...HERE!
Huge Elephant Seal
This Matrix reboot looks promising.
i’m not sure when i started this, but i lower the pitch of my voice. i know i do this, can tell when i’m doing it, and it’s become automatic.
as a woman working in a male dominated field, how i carry myself has a direct impact on how i’m treated. add in the “blonde bimbo” stereotype and i’m having to check myself on yet another level.
this is not a complaint. it’s just how it is. but i know i do things to… “work around” this. which includes modulating the pitch of my voice.
i’ve been giving thought to these things recently. and my thinking has been, surprisingly, informed by some of the amber rose gif sets i’ve seen on tumblr about slut shaming. changing oneself to fit someone else’s reality…
but don’t we all do this, to some extent, as a matter of being in society?
i don’t know. it’s just something i’m thinking about. changing my vocal pitch has benefits i’m not willing (right now) to give up. but how many other compromises am i making? what are the benefits? which ones should/could/can i stop?
2016. my year of questioning.
The Equal Justice Initiative is building a memorial for lynching victims — and it’s about time.
The Equal Justice Initiative announced on Tuesday that it will build the first-ever national memorial to lynching victims in Montgomery, Alabama. Titled “Memorial to Peace and Justice,” the EJI project will sit on six acres of land that used to be a public housing project in Montgomery.
The structure will include the thousands of lynching victims’ names on concrete columns, which will represent hundreds of U.S. counties where the acts took place. The memorial will also coincide with the opening of a museum.
Holy shit this is gorgeous and powerful. Love it.
My gondola pic from Venice #2010
#wbw #venice #italy #europe #trip #rtw #worldtour #travels #gondolas (at Venice, Italy)